What a weird week

What a weird week. And I'm so glad it's over.

Yes, this is my first post of 2006. My friend Celia reminded me yesterday that I haven't posted anything since I made my resolutions on December 31st.

I must be constantly reminded: You got a damn blog. Use it!

So like I was saying--what a weird week.

Monday and Tuesday I had to fight to stay in course. Winter is the worst season of the year for me. It drains me. Tires me. Confuses me. I've been having a hell of a time concentrating. I wish I could go to Puerto Rico or a warmer climate at this time of year. Hate it.

Then, there's that thing Monday night with the CAMM salon charging admission. Peeps, I tell you: I didn't know a darn thing about it. And that's why I said what I said at the Salon. I'm of the opinion that, at least, the CAMM members shouldn't have to pay for the salon. But we'll see how this develops in the months ahead. You all know how much I care about CAMM and the Baltimore Indie film community. I won't let the momentum that has been built be stopped and wasted.

Wednesday and Thursday, I started to feel better. I was getting into my groove. Finally made it to Friday... and.. Out The Blue, a ghost from the past makes a surprise appearance: An ex of mine from 3 years ago just decided to email me.

She apologized for the way things ended between us. Things did end up badly between me and this girl. It was a very difficult period in my life. At the time, I thought she was 'the one'.

Cut to three years later. She emails me to apologize. Because she's starting a new path in life. She's now married.. with a kid on the way.

I don't know if I wanted to know that. I suppose my curiosity was fulfilled. But it was strange, finding out that someone I once cared for so much is married and building a life with someone else.

Life is so strange.

I congratulated her. Thanked her for the apology. And wished her well in life. It's been 3 years. Life went on. She moved on. I moved on. She wasn't the one. That was that. In retrospect, we were worlds apart. She left my life, and her departure put me back in course towards my life's passion and mission--To make films. To create. To tell stories.

And to find the one who's truly for me. She will come... Out The Blue.

Tying things up with John Lennon:

Out the blue you came to me
And blew away life's misery
Out the blue life's energy
Out the blue you came to me

Every day I thank the Lord and Lady
For the way that you came to me
Anyway it had to be two minds
One destiny

All my life's been a long slow knife
I was born just to get to you
Anyway I survived long enough
To make you my wife

Like a U.F.O. you came to me
And blew away life's misery
Out the blue life's energy
Out the blue you came to me

I'm so in love with this song. Because it's so true.